Still Here…

feeling a little blue …

I-am-Still-here

I decided to let these pages flow … with less censoring …

How

it’s a fine line, I feel, on how personal to get here in the land of blog

Precious-Healing

then again … what is a blog  if not an expression of ourselves

Alex

Julie’s Super Nova art journaling workshop is wonderful on so many levels … there are discussion groups and of course Julie’s inspiring lessons … monoprinting is something I am really getting into and I am crazy about stenciling with plastic doilies

Still-Here

some days I wonder how I can feel joy at all without our special boy here to hug … always grateful for healing that comes in many mysterious and wondrous ways

John Mayer sings beautifully about the heart of life  here … I can listen to this song over and over and ….

26 responses to “Still Here…

  1. Beautiful blue journal pages. Blue has always been a fluid and emotional color for me- I love your expressiveness here!

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  2. Art and creativity may help heal the hurt a bit- at least it’s distracting. Some of the best music and lyrics come from sadness- I guess art does to…………very pretty piece.

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  3. It was so hard for me to hold back the tears that begin to fall as I listened to John Mayer and looked through the special valentine and this beautiful page you’ve created in memory of your darling son, Alex.

    Lots of Big Hugs Coming Your Way!!
    Hugs, Ashlyn

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  4. My heart is aching for the loss of your dear Alex, Patty. Healing is a long, arduous process – especially when you’re a Mom. I think it’s wonderful that you can express yourself in your journal. Blessings & Healing Hugs, Terri xoxo

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  5. You are a gift to others when you share your sorrow, Patty.

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  6. These are such expressive pages. Fantastic work and clearly an emotional spread. Keep expressing and glad you shared.

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  7. aww patty , so glad you shared with us….such beautiful pages……send some aussie hugs your way…[[[[]]]]

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  8. Klasse Journal Eintrag Patti

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  9. My heart breaks for you Patty – I cannot begin to know how painful such a loss is. But I do know that sometimes, to go with the flow of conciousness (whether in art or poetry) that pain comes to the surface and, however hard it is, somehow helps in a very small way with the healing. God bless you x

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  10. you’ve let it out into a safe place full of caring…it is good…your pages are beautiful…i always think of you when i hear that song…hugs over the mysterious net of invisible waves…can you feel them?? xoxo

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  11. Patty, your pages are so beautiful and so touching. I can’t imagine how devastating such a loss must be, It’s so important to express the feelings and not just bottle them up inside. I’m so sorry you had to experiance such loss, and I hope for, and wish you lots of love and healing Patty.
    thanks for sharing!!

    Blessings,
    Linda

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  12. Dear sweet Patty, my heart breaks for you, just know how much you are loved here in blogland and expressing how you feel and showing this side of you is I think a good thing. You can’t always pretend to be happy, and in letting go here will probably help others feeling pain too.

    The journal pages are just beautiful, and I think Alex would be very proud of you 🙂

    As for John Meyer, he is a favorite of ours and the neatest thing here is we were watching his concert again last night. We have it taped and watch it over and over.

    Bless you,
    Lynn

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  13. Wow Patty this is absolutely unique.
    So wonderful blue design. I love them.

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  14. Thank you for sharing your sorrows Patty, our hearts are certainly big enough to send you love and try to help ease your grief. xoxo Christen

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  15. I went to the post that talks about your son. I’m SO sorry. Even though it was years ago, I’m sure the pain is still present, especially at times when you write about it.

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  16. Patty, art from the heart is often the most powerful and inspiring of all, your post brought tears to my eyes, such a wonderful tribute to your dear son. Thinking of you Mxx

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  17. I can’t even begin to tell you the number of times you and your Alex come to my mind. And I lift those thoughts up to God who knows best how to comfort where there is none. I especially think of you now that we are coming to the candle-lighting time of the year. I remember your “candle in the window” post from last year ……. I now have a candle on my kitchen window sill. Just a reminder of those losses around me.

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  18. What a remarkably beautiful way to remember one you love. This touches me to the very core and I appreciate your courage and openness in sharing it with us all. If there’s anything I’ve found in BlogLand it’s the the arms of our friends wrap around us like angels. I hope you’ve felt that through this post.

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  19. My heart hurts for you, Patty–and I care so much. I will keep you and your family in my prayers, and I know your son is an angel, keeping close to you and loving you with all his heart. ~ Hugs, Jann

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  20. Beautiful post, thank you for sharing.
    So sorry for you loss, big hug xoxo

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  21. Remembering . . . your sweet, gentle, caring boy-man . . . tears are flowing down my face. Gone too soon . . . much too soon . . . seized from us so unfairly, so harshly. He was always an angel . . . is an angel still . . . watching us . . . sending signs. Always communicating . . . speaking gently . . . count the words . . . a coincidence . . . probably not . . . He speaks.

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  22. Patty your journal is turning out Fabulous. This is a good step in the healing process.

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  23. Oh Patty, I’m so sorry for your loss. That’s my biggest fear, to loose one of my beloved sons. Your art is beautiful. Hugs Limar

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  25. inanoctopusgarden

    Patty – my heart hurts as I feel the passion and emotions in your writting and art…what a loveing tribute you send each time you weave it into your work. I know, in my heart, that he is truely speaking to you when ever you discover your hearts -letting you know he sees all these works that you do.
    xo

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  26. Hi Patty, your collage is stunningly beautiful. I also went to your links and listening to John Mayer. he is a fav of mine, I love his voice. I have tears again….. Hugs to you, Shirleyx

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